Riotgrrl

You called me "riotgrrl" and, although amused, I didn't get it--if you're reading this, you know who you are. Today, as I ran, light on my feet, strong and fierce, no longer present but living my run as if vicariously through someone else, I heard this song come on ("Riot" by Three Days Grace):

"If you feel so empty
So used up, so let down
If you feel so angry
So ripped off so stepped on
You're not the only one
Refusing to back down
You're not the only one
So get up
Let's start a riot...a riot..."

I realized there is an alter ego inside of me. She comes out and takes over when I cannot go on. She is fed by struggles and brings me strength. She is the one in the mirror whom I admire and wish I could be and carries me to unimaginable heights.

Beyonce may have Sasha Fierce, Dr. Jekyll has Edward Hyde. I have riotgrrl.